The Click-ening
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snoozefestaudioIt continues to be a picture perfect October, for 2022. The weekend and Monday were in the low 70sF, with the trees still full and in full color, but with leaves falling, blowing down streets, and covering the lawns.
But today it was overcast and it rained all day and all night, WHICH I LOVE, and there was a nice bit of chill in the air! I love a rainy day at peak fall color in late October!.. don't know why... Something about the gray sky brings out the colors better, and... something about the wet, shiny leaves on the ground after dark.
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Monday, Dad & I met up with Sheila, and Colleen & Justin here at the house, around noon, and hung around here for a while before going out to eat.
From the restaurant, I left for work, and then after my four hour shift, I drove out to their Air B&B in Oswego. And we hung out, drinking, until 1:30AM, having a blast, just catching up, and talking & laughing about the past.
I haven't driven drunk in well over a decade, but I did chance it last night... it being a Monday night.
There wasn't a soul on the roads, and I didn't see any cops either, but I was extremely careful... a mile below the limit... nice slow stops... holding that wheel steady... and I was safely home in ten minutes.
--<>--
I did wake up with a hangover today though!.. and that's also extremely rare.
And 30 minutes later, Sheila, and Colleen & Jusin were back, and we all went out to eat again with Dad... this time with rainy skies, rather than sunny, which fit the mood of the hangover, and everybody's collective sleep deficit.
Again, I left for work at 2:30.
And then when I got home tonight, they came to visit us here, and we had a pizza, and hung out in the kitchen, and Snoop & Prowly were downstairs, along with Dad & the dog.
It was a nice little final hangout, but they hit the road at 10:30PM... with it still raining out there.
And such was the whirlwhind visit of Sheila, and Colleen & Justin, on a random Monday & Tuesday in October.
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But... it was something about being out so late that night, in a strange place, with these relatives I haven't seen since summer 2021...
And something about the hangover... and the rain...
That made me feel today, when I walked into Grape Elementary to start my shift...
Like... Wow!.. This is my new life, and I like it!
--<>--
Familiar building, full of people who recognize me... total certainty about the tasks ahead of me tonight... and fully anticipating to return home to my two cats, who I know well...
Where did all this concrete reality come from?.. after spending almost two years in a weird limbo of anxiety... unable to envision my future?
Sure, there's still issues to work out, but... this is the new life!
And I like it better than the old life!
--<>--
I guess it shouldn't feel so surprising, because since June, I've just been cherry-picking things I've liked from other stages of my life.
I liked being poor and recording crickets in the summer of 1994, so I did that again.
I liked starting a new part time job that fall, so I did that again.
I liked having two cats who were siblings, so I did that again.
I liked being a janitor, so I did that again.
I just... didn't think it would all fall together so smoothly!
--<>--
Well, it hasn't been so smoothly, though, right?... I just wrote on Sunday about what a harrowing few months it's been, didn't I?
But... nevertheless... today it all just clicked!
Like... CLICK!... new life locked in!
And it just took a party night and a hangover on a rainy tuesday to make me feel that click.
--<>--
The 300 feet of poly-rope, and the four M50 pulleys were waiting for me on the front stoop when I got home last night, after driving drunk.
I didn't unpackage them until tonight, after everybody left... but those pulleys are FAT!.. and that spool of rope is FAT... and just the right size for the pulleys!
My paycheck hit the bank last night!
The cat climber for Snoop & Prowley is on the way!
I am in the mood to kick some fallen Mulberry ass this weekend, and be the greatest cat dad ever, next week!
Handyman work is the only missing puzzle peice, to sustain everything.
And as we head into November, I'm ready for it!
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Halfway through, Thinking, Fast & Slow, it's safe to say that System 1, or the intuitive mind... is part of the waking, conscious mind.
There is a separation between System 1 and System 2, but both understand language, and math, and they work together... handing information back and forth in real time... with each able to modify the workings of the other, on the fly.
Sytem 1 is, more or less, your idiot, gullible, snap-judgement self, who is occasinally useful for making a sudden judgement call... but the rest of the time, drops the ball, in modern life.
System 1 is also your stupid optical illusion self!.. if that clears it up.
System 1 takes everything at face value and is easily fooled by optical illusions... parlor tricks... simple misdirections, etc.
System 1 is laughably easily tricked by suggestions, priming, framing, wording, false dichotomies, media hype... you name it!
And it's horrible with probabilities and statistics!.. absolutely horrible!
So, if System 2 is more like the executive, and the you, of your waking life... then system 1 is the hyper active executive assistant, who jumps to conclusions.
--<>--
You can train System 1 to not be so absolutely stupid. And you can train System 2 to not rely so heavily on System 1, and think things out more slowly and rationally whenever there's time for that... which is most of the time.
But they are two facets of your waking, conscious mind.
--<>--
That said, I still have the other half of the book to go.
But I'll be done with it by Thursday.
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But today it was overcast and it rained all day and all night, WHICH I LOVE, and there was a nice bit of chill in the air! I love a rainy day at peak fall color in late October!.. don't know why... Something about the gray sky brings out the colors better, and... something about the wet, shiny leaves on the ground after dark.
Monday, Dad & I met up with Sheila, and Colleen & Justin here at the house, around noon, and hung around here for a while before going out to eat.
From the restaurant, I left for work, and then after my four hour shift, I drove out to their Air B&B in Oswego. And we hung out, drinking, until 1:30AM, having a blast, just catching up, and talking & laughing about the past.
I haven't driven drunk in well over a decade, but I did chance it last night... it being a Monday night.
There wasn't a soul on the roads, and I didn't see any cops either, but I was extremely careful... a mile below the limit... nice slow stops... holding that wheel steady... and I was safely home in ten minutes.
I did wake up with a hangover today though!.. and that's also extremely rare.
And 30 minutes later, Sheila, and Colleen & Jusin were back, and we all went out to eat again with Dad... this time with rainy skies, rather than sunny, which fit the mood of the hangover, and everybody's collective sleep deficit.
Again, I left for work at 2:30.
And then when I got home tonight, they came to visit us here, and we had a pizza, and hung out in the kitchen, and Snoop & Prowly were downstairs, along with Dad & the dog.
It was a nice little final hangout, but they hit the road at 10:30PM... with it still raining out there.
And such was the whirlwhind visit of Sheila, and Colleen & Justin, on a random Monday & Tuesday in October.
But... it was something about being out so late that night, in a strange place, with these relatives I haven't seen since summer 2021...
And something about the hangover... and the rain...
That made me feel today, when I walked into Grape Elementary to start my shift...
Like... Wow!.. This is my new life, and I like it!
Familiar building, full of people who recognize me... total certainty about the tasks ahead of me tonight... and fully anticipating to return home to my two cats, who I know well...
Where did all this concrete reality come from?.. after spending almost two years in a weird limbo of anxiety... unable to envision my future?
Sure, there's still issues to work out, but... this is the new life!
And I like it better than the old life!
I guess it shouldn't feel so surprising, because since June, I've just been cherry-picking things I've liked from other stages of my life.
I liked being poor and recording crickets in the summer of 1994, so I did that again.
I liked starting a new part time job that fall, so I did that again.
I liked having two cats who were siblings, so I did that again.
I liked being a janitor, so I did that again.
I just... didn't think it would all fall together so smoothly!
Well, it hasn't been so smoothly, though, right?... I just wrote on Sunday about what a harrowing few months it's been, didn't I?
But... nevertheless... today it all just clicked!
Like... CLICK!... new life locked in!
And it just took a party night and a hangover on a rainy tuesday to make me feel that click.
The 300 feet of poly-rope, and the four M50 pulleys were waiting for me on the front stoop when I got home last night, after driving drunk.
I didn't unpackage them until tonight, after everybody left... but those pulleys are FAT!.. and that spool of rope is FAT... and just the right size for the pulleys!
My paycheck hit the bank last night!
The cat climber for Snoop & Prowley is on the way!
I am in the mood to kick some fallen Mulberry ass this weekend, and be the greatest cat dad ever, next week!
Handyman work is the only missing puzzle peice, to sustain everything.
And as we head into November, I'm ready for it!
Halfway through, Thinking, Fast & Slow, it's safe to say that System 1, or the intuitive mind... is part of the waking, conscious mind.
There is a separation between System 1 and System 2, but both understand language, and math, and they work together... handing information back and forth in real time... with each able to modify the workings of the other, on the fly.
Sytem 1 is, more or less, your idiot, gullible, snap-judgement self, who is occasinally useful for making a sudden judgement call... but the rest of the time, drops the ball, in modern life.
System 1 is also your stupid optical illusion self!.. if that clears it up.
System 1 takes everything at face value and is easily fooled by optical illusions... parlor tricks... simple misdirections, etc.
System 1 is laughably easily tricked by suggestions, priming, framing, wording, false dichotomies, media hype... you name it!
And it's horrible with probabilities and statistics!.. absolutely horrible!
So, if System 2 is more like the executive, and the you, of your waking life... then system 1 is the hyper active executive assistant, who jumps to conclusions.
You can train System 1 to not be so absolutely stupid. And you can train System 2 to not rely so heavily on System 1, and think things out more slowly and rationally whenever there's time for that... which is most of the time.
But they are two facets of your waking, conscious mind.
That said, I still have the other half of the book to go.
But I'll be done with it by Thursday.
°¦}
