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Deciding how to feel aobut everything that's been logged in this blog the past two years... at it's core, has to do with what the trued genre is... of the reality I've been living.
I have been fearing, for a long time, that this blog is either horror, or tragedy... not wanting it to be either.
But it's definitely not been a comedy, or a romance!
And then it finally came back to me, after a chat with Tim, Friday night, into the earliest hours of this morning... that the genre is, adventure!
That's not me imposing a genre, through wishful thinking... that's just the actual genre of this whole blog!.. as determined by the cosmos!
It started with me in a very stable situation with Dad, here in the house, and then I got two cats.
And then all hell broke loose!.. starting with the fallen mulberry!
Everything I did with that tree, and with Dad, and the house and the yard, and BMO, and the janitor job turned maintenance, and everything else... makes perfect sense... if this is an adventure story!
Because adventures start out with something normal, and then it's just one thing after another, and you lose friends along the way, in different ways, and you keep a few, and the setting changes, and the circumstances keep changing...
And it's all about making it through... a LONG series of crazy assed experiences... before finally getting to a new normal in the end... by the skin of your teeth... having learned all kinds of lessons along the way.
So this move I'm about to make is NOT the end of the adventure.
It's just another chapter in the middle of the longer story!
The ships going down... Snoop bailed... I got Yvette to safety... I'm struggling to save my shit and get into a life raft... and will Prowly stick with me?
And if so, what comes next?
I've started a new job... union negotiations are nigh... there could be a strike!... it's an election year!... Democracy is on the table again!...
What will happen next?
Everything is very fluid right now, and the adventure mindset is the one I need to adopt to survive, with my mental and emotional health in tact!
The studio apartment is the place we have to go NOW!
I'll still own the house for a while after and maybe can sell some stuff SOON!
But everything's gonna continue to develop and change, socially, politically, and financially, through 24, 25, and beyond.
And I'll need to continue to react and adapt on the fly, to survive, while hanging onto the few things I have left, like the album.
Lost the whole house and yard... still have the computers... kinda thing.
This move, and that studio, with a tiny 12X9 foot living space are just the next phase of an ongoing adventure... a novel new setting that needs to be experienced and explored, for better and worse... on the way to a future chapter.
I could argue I'm too old for this stuff... turning 55 next week.
But, these are the 2020s, and they are insane!.. so, no, I'm not!
Hisory will look back and say, Well, this is a classic, Depression II story, like so many we've heard before.
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