Maybe One Car for Now
Thursday, October 26th, 2023 12:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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66F and overcast today. And with Yvette this morning, going around the north side of the house to get into the back, I was surprised to see this!..
Because those are locust leaves, and I've been waiting for our locust tree to finally turn.
It was still green yesterday, but today it's fully gold and losing it's leaves.
In general this week is THE peak of fall color around here, everywhere I go! Here. Along the commute. And in the neighborhood around Cloud.
I was just out there this morning with the pets watching the leaves fall, and didn't want to get up and come back inside!
We've been going back there together since February, when there was still snow on the ground. And the sitting spot that emerged has been a thing since May.
So I've seen all kinds of transformation in that back yard this year, so it's really nice to finally see everything done, with the hoses put away, and the leaves falling.
No response from Dylan to my text from last night.
It's a great deal for him, but I'm sure all he'll see is, "no girlfriend," and, "be on meds or in therapy," and will now do everything in his power to avoid such a fate.
I think he's been trying to create confusion, and a sense of urgency, so that he can just show up here with Taylor, unexpectedly, move in on his own terms, and force me to adjust to it.
I know from being psychotic in the past, and anybody who's suffered from psychosis will also tell you... that there is a definite allure to the state. It's a more magical world, even with the inevitable paranoia.
There's a sense of adventure and mystery to it all... and a sense of being special and being keyed into secrets of the universe that others don't understand.
So I'm sure he doesn't want to get professional help. And I'm pretty sure Taylor is enabling him... or even wrapped up in the psychosis with him... which can happen.
So what he wants is to just stay with her and be free of her dad.
But he destroyed his car, which makes that nearly impossible now. And he has yet to admit to himself or anybody else that this was a terrible mistake.
He still insists he was driving for his life that day, and he thinks the car is still worth something now... like there's a way to undo the mistake.
And if his fantasy scenario had panned out... where he just got a Pathfinder... he'd have driven straight here with Taylor and tried to talk his way into the house talking about how desperate they both were, and how I'd promised him, etc, etc.
But he's been very coy about mentioning her to me so far, even though he's talked about saving her to Celina, Jason, and Michael.
And he's being coy with Sheila about exactly what's going on out there.
So... by just putting it in his face... "no girlfriend," and, "stay on meds," I've cut through that bullshit.
It's part of our conversation now.
And if he doesn't like that, then he can try something else... and I get to enjoy the peace of living alone that I've grown used to over the year.
Quiet night at work. Very light rain most of the evening.
The only news about Dylan was from Celina, who reached out to him around 1:30PM.
He said he's staying at Taylor's and the dad is staying elsewhere to give them time to talk.
I feel like this confirms my suspicion that his story about the dad kicking him out was total bullshit.
If the dad had really done that, he would NOT be going to stay somewhere else to give them time alone together... because that's just not a thing any parent has EVER done!
He also told Celina he was still waiting for the car deal to go through, but would be driving back to Illinois in that Pathfinder as soon as it did.
But that's just more bullshit, because this is day three of the supposed car deal, and car deals do not take three days to do!
He's just back there at Taylor's dad's apartment with no car or job... or sanity.
And they're insane too, because they're MAGA Q-Anon... and so, to stay with his girl & survive, he's gonna wind up delving deeper into that community... like a kid in a cult.
And it could take years for him to wise up.
In other news, I made an InstaCart order for Halloween candy to be delivered in the morning.
I'll be at work, but my plan is to put a basket of candy on a little stand on the stoop with a sign, so that passing trick-or-treaters can take some.
I kinda have to, because of all the lights and webs outside!
Kids will be drawn to the house.
Maybe I'll get to see some of the trick-or-treat action, remotely, from my doorbell camera, next Tuesday.
A few things are also coming from Amazon on Saturday.
A new toilet paper holder and towel hooks for the downstairs bathroom.
But also some stuff to help with the window work I plan to do this weekend.
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